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byebye memories of what once was.

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remember when summer days consisted of everyday baseball with the neighborhood boys and first noticing the pat on the back that went more deeper than just a pat on the back? and summer nights consisted of playing ding dong ditch or having a first kiss. things used to be so innocent and simple. so happy and non substance related. things were more of ( Read more... )

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i think for the first time in a long while i'm just really blank.

we gotta start feeding our souls. not our addictions or afflictions of pain. to avoid the same questions, we must ask ourselves to get any answers. i wish i could save her from all her delusions, all the confusion of a nation that starves for salvation. but clothing is the closest to approximation to god. and he only knows that drugs are all we ( Read more... )

your foolish attempts at luring me in through my love for you leaving my vulnerability at the edge of a short ledge with your selfishly vindictive intentions by controlling my emotions have opened my eyes and i am no longer blinded by your lack of self esteem and lack of any genuine care for anyone other than yourself. i've tried to understand you ( Read more... )

i cried and still felt beautiful. a drunken mess with an angry tongue. point ramblings toward the fool who broke a peaceful harmony on such a beautiful endeavor. lipstick smudged, nose red, smeared mascara, pretty floral dress out of order. he still made me feel beautiul. i, really, looked my worst. lifted spirits, and said all would be okay. ( Read more... )