I have to decide if I should spend the summer in Chapel Hill living for free, working part time and riding my bike or stay home and work my ass off to save up a shit ton of money for fall racing.

All I want to do is get drunk on a Monday night and do my first day of training hungover. Is that too much to ask?

The only person I hang out with is my ex-girlfriend.

If I'm not traveling life is fucking boring.

Maybe it's because hanging out with my girlfriend everyday takes up most of my time. Or maybe it's because I'd rather wake up early on a Saturday than go out on a Friday. But this whole not having any friends thing is starting to suck. I had such a great morning yesterday and then pissed the rest of the day away on the couch watching TV while no ( Read more... )

I'm not sure I've ever wanted to cry more than when I was in the top 5 at the state championship with just over a lap to go when the idiot next to me yelling "hold your line!" decided not to hold his line and crashed. I could see the finish line with the lap counter reading "1" and then I was sliding straight into a hay bale. If I lost because I ( Read more... )

I've treated alot of the girls I've been involved with really shitty.

I'm also apparently good at school.

I kind of want to just sit around and be sad. Really bad timing since these next two weekends really mean alot to me. Failure at either one is probably going to send me plummeting ( Read more... )

Bumming pretty hard. Really confused/disappointed that I could do so poorly in the subject that I though I was the best at. It took me 2 years to figure out what I want to do and I don't know how I'd react if I didn't get into PTA. I have to stay distracted so that I don't think about it too much. Talk about a tailspin ( Read more... )

I've never had so many people tell me they were proud of me in a such a short amount of time.

Sometimes I really just don't care. I kind of stumble through my day trying to do as little as possible and still make time go by at a reasonable rate. I figure if no one else here tries then why should I. 3 days until I'm a part time employee and a full time student.