Why do I let myself get into situations where I know I am going to get hurt... Why can't I let go of people... GOD I really need to talk to someone... But, yet again... I have no one to talk to... Why do I feel so alone... Why does it seem that no one cares that I am here and I am still alive... Maybe it is just because the people that I thought ( Read more... )

Well, today has just been one of those days... I can feel myself falling and slipping away... I really need to stop this... Tonight I did something really stupid that I haven't done for a really long time... It involves... Well, vicodin and a straw... Well, I really don't have much more to say about that... Why do I let myself do this... Why do I ( Read more... )

I feel lost... I don't know where I want to be or where I should be... I want to be somewhere but I don't know if I am wanted there... I want so much... But, no one will help me find the right path to go down... I am scared that no matter what path I take it is going to lead to heart ache... I just don't know what to do... I don't know anything for ( Read more... )

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How come everytime I try to do the right thing I always end up being the one who is shit on and the one who ends up feeling like shit for trying to make someone feel better... Well, today Missy came over and she appologized and anna still wouldn't talk to her... Well, she told me that she was going to go shopping for her mom like we was supposed to ( Read more... )

The one place that I felt loved being down here was at our apartment and at Missy's parents house... Well, we came home tonight and we went over there to get dafni... Well, Missy saw that we was all wearing new shirts and shit and get upset... So... I had bought her one and I was going to give it to her for Christmas... But she was pouting so I ( Read more... )

Well, I really have a lot on my mind... I really need to do a lot of writing in my real journal tonight... On another note... My hair is really kinda growing on me... I need to go get it cut tomorrow... I like it when I have it done but if it is not done I don't... But, I need to get it cut becuase it don't like to go right... Well, I really don't ( Read more... )

Well, we went to wal-mart today and I bought hair color on top of christams and b-day presents for my little boy... Man I miss him soo much... But, back on topic... I bought this fusia hair color... It was really pretty... It was only a hightlighting kit but since my hair is sooo short there is enough there... Well, I put it on my head and it is ( Read more... )

I am really bored... I really don't have much to post about... I am not doing anything all night as far as I know... I really don't want to sit around tonight for some reason... I wanna go do something... Maybe I will go for a walk or something... We was supposed to go to the mall today but Ronda called last night and said she is going to stop by ( Read more... )