so im leaving livejournal. fuck this place. im moving to melo. i can be found here.
http://www.melodramatic.com/users/brianundead

so i really haven't had a real update in awhile so here ya go ( Read more... )

i am all you've ever wanted,
what all the other boys all promised.

i pretty much suck

i don't know who are and aren't my friends anymore. i don't even know if i have friends anymore. i don't blame them, who would want to be friends with me.

why do i still have feelings for you. everything tells me i shouldn't. i had to hold back tears during a couple tbs songs at that show cause they reminded me of what i went through. but you still say you care. but there you were in boston, at the same concert, and you didn't even want to come say hi. when we never get chances to hang out cause your ( Read more... )

all i want is a cute girl to hold hands and cuddle with.
its that too much to ask.

i never update this thing this much, but i have no one to talk to, so i just have to spill everything here ( Read more... )

why do i always find a way to mess things up. why can't i allow there to be some sort of good in my life. i can't deal with anything anymore, i always have these breakdowns. nothing in my life is stable, everything comes and goes. i really have no idea what to do anymore.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh. i want to be with you. why do you keep avoiding it, if you don't have any feelings for me anymore, then why don't you just say it. instead of always saying i don't know, or i don't know what i want, which makes this drag on and on and on. as long as im talking to you, im still going to have something for you. but i don't want to ( Read more... )