i've been kinda busy sorry. Allot thought going on in my head ( Read more... )

everyone's saying i look stressed... but i don't know. i don't think i am personally. Yeah i gotta lot to do and i'm sorta rushin about but there worried and i'm not. Well... we'll just gotta see how this ends up. Uh... talk to ya tomarrow no really time to write

Stressed >.<
i have solo and emsemble festval sat. and band practise sun. if solo and emsemble goes good i live. if it doesn't i might just die.

i'm epressed right now, and i'll be depressed tomarrow, and forever on. I swear life sucks and thats all thats to it.

Hey. I've been away for a while cause.... i just haven't had time to update. I SHOULDN'T EVEN REALLY BE DOING IT NOW. cause this is to much time that i need other wise ( Read more... )

wow. how i wish i could just go back to school.today has not been a happy day. All i've done is have negitive feelings. Like i watched Saw. That is offically the only movie to ever scare me. And nick was acting funny on the phone today and i had to hang up. I'm almost crying but not. I love you nick

i was i was fucking void of emotions. theres no point to them. They only bring pain. Pain that i try so hard not to deserve but i'm such a fuck up in life i do. I was a fuck up being born, and my parents wish i was never born and so do i. It would be so better if i was gone. Just killed off or something cause everyones life would be easier.

I'm ( Read more... )

Ahhhhhhh. my mom says that chris is stealing our mail. And she was really mad that two of her checks just went poof and disappeared. Then she relized that her deposit checks were gone two and she was really pissed cause i was supposed to put it out there and i never did. So when she found it later she was really really happy. So i guess that my ( Read more... )

x.x
how can a day go horribly wrong and perfectly right? I got so many good hings going on but, for ever good happening something bad also happens.

It all started this morning, i toke my bass on the bus and exc. and things went well, Nicks bus was late so i did have to wait for him but it wasn't that horrible. Then my friend Carrie comes up and she' ( Read more... )

I'm still suffering over the Shane thing. And Nick is sick. And i'm getting tempted into my suicidal thoughts again ( Read more... )

Sorry i haven't updated in like forever ( Read more... )