the dreary downward spiral called life

[bsoulmate]

everything and everyone i love is just drifting away from me. i would say ripped from me....but its all willingly. all i can do is just sit here, like my computer is my only window into the world......and watch everything get farther and farther away......and you know what....i dont even think i care anymore. i dont care about much any more.

Comments

[toxicsunshine]

mona, I almost didnt't comment because I didnt know exactly what to say.
and i still don't. i dont know what to say.
just, I love you.
never for even half a second should you ever doubt that.
okay?
i love you and that's all.
i was thinking you and laura should spend the night tommorrow or so.
That we should go bowling, just us three.
and not just because of what you said, i was going to call you today but someone erased your number from my damn caller ID.

Ya know what? sometimes you are such a good friend to me, I feel like just about the worst friend in the world.
Like, I know that you losing that thing that was so important to you was upsetting for you, but I never stopped to think that maybe you were really really upset, and looking back at that, I feel so stupid.
I love you more than anything and i realise that if I didn't say it, would you even know?
I don't know. All I know is that I love you.
I love you, okay?

[bsoulmate]

thank you for this comment. i really needed it. i love you so much...and you are a great friend. dont doubt that. i would love to do something....but could we possibly do it friday night? i work so much but i get home on friday evening and have all weekend off. i would love to go like bowling or something....and spend the night. i just need a night to relax and be with friends. i love you....get back to me. my home phone is 866-3136.....but you are more likely to reach me on my cell because i am always working 202-5406. love ya

You are still my best friend

[dea_lachelle]

Mona,
I just want you to know that I love you with all my heart and have since the day you were born and will forever. It is hard to keep in touch with us both being so busy and far away but I will always be here and you can always escape to here you know that. You can email me or call me anytime you need or want,I am very worried please email me and let me know you are ok.
Love you
Chelle