Well, I don't believe I'm going to be getting to sleep tonight/today/this morning. It's 5 am. Why am I not asleep? Because I feel like I need to cry. But I'm going to go do that tomorrow down in La Jolla today...maybe. I'd like to think I understand myself, but the more I come to grips with, the further I understand things. This journal I thought ( Read more... )

How does he do it? One day of just doing something, makes me fall more and more for him. It's not fair. So we went ice skating and I haven't gone for like 10 years. I didn't fall once! Almost a few times due to Chris trying to make me fall, or making me skate backwards==scary! But we went with his dad, sister, her bf?, and andrew came later...haha ( Read more... )

I'm so sick of being this depressive piece of crap. I want to turn things around and be happy again because this isn't doing me any good. I'm crazy in love with someone...and I cn't take it, but...I don't want to be depressing about it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

Tonight was by far one of the best days of my life. It was one in the morning and I wanted to go to the beach and Chris was online. So I told him I wanted to go. And we did. He came and picked me up (:)) and we drove down to La Jolla. The funny thing was, was that he said the whole scene reminded him of Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, and ( Read more... )

I forgot to write these last few days. I've been working like the working bitch. 9-3. 6 days straight...now NINE! This is just plain shitty. Isn't that illegal? Oh well, I have next weekend off. WOOTWOOT. Im home alone right now...HOLD ME! I should be doing my speech rite now, but I'm not. GREAT. ANyways, now to real fun stuff. Thursday rocked my ( Read more... )

Damnit I'm not done yet. It's 5 fucking AM and I am on here typing away like the loser shit I am. A guy wants to date me that is perfectly capable of acheiving that position, but noooooo. I always want the opposite of what I currently am...sorta. When I'm taken I wanna be single, when I'm single, I wanna be single, but I wanna be taken too. Gey. ( Read more... )

If I asked you to come along with me and leave it all behind ( Read more... )

1 The Best Deceptions ( Read more... )

Well to sum up today. I was awoken by my fucking phone at 9am with a call from work asking me to come in today and I said no, but yes to tues and weds. Im so easily molded. Stupid work. So i have work in...6 hours. GREAT. Anywas, so I sat on my ass allll day, was pursued again by a guy who told me if we hung out, never to talk to my friends on the ( Read more... )

Well, to sum up my desert weekend I have a few words to use: FUN AS SHIT, and SCARY AS SHIT. Well Friday I head out there with my sis' caravan and get there around 930. We went to this spot HELLA far away from the damn city that Ocotillo Wells looked like and parked it there. Then came some massive drinking and sittin by the bonfire. There was this ( Read more... )