tonight i did a whole load of my boyfriends laundry. like, i was sorting and realized i could make an entire load of his clothing. i also realized how much time he's been spending here lately, and how much of his time he's given me and my family since this whole thing happened with my mother. the least i could do is clean his dirty clothes. the ( Read more... )

who said it was cool for women to wear men's boxers as shorts?

did i miss something?

remind me to write about my siblings, and the illusion of family unity

mom is home now. lets hope it lasts, poor gal's been through the ringer this past month. my sister carmen is here for a while, which is going to make starting school a little easier. playing wow, its a nice distraction. watching sex in the city, yes another distraction, oh so entertaining. my thesis is looming around the corner. my life is ( Read more... )

the night i'm not at the hospital, i'm up till the wee hours fucking around on my bands myspace account, and watching sex in the city on dvd. blah. finishing this episode, then off to bed for me.

moms condition is stable, and from what i can tell improving. i've basically been living in the hospital, and coming home for insomnia breaks. i suppose it could be worse, i could be having full blown uncontrollable panic attacks. i almost lost it when she was diagnosed with enemia and recieved a blood transfusion, but somehow i kept my shit ( Read more... )

mom is back in the hospital. she has pneumonia. not stopping to think. stopping=crying. gotta keep on going, but i can feel my body giving out. need to keep it together.

mom being home tonight is many things at once: relieving, scary, intimidating, worrysome, peaceful. she's having trouble breathing. i think it's cause of the dust, my brother gerald thinks its her lung (it was flat after surgery). she sat up in her chair and is sleeping in that for a while. tommorow morning i'm going to wash all the sheets ( Read more... )

mom came home today. two weeks in the hospital. i'm sure she's glad to be here, probably more so than i am to have her back.

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