mom's recovering, but she's had a hard week. her medications were causing severe nausea and constant dry heaving. seems like yesterday was her first real day of sleep. she had to take an anti-inflammatory after the surgery which she finished yesterday. we think that's what was causing the severe nausea. mi tia malena came into town last night ( Read more... )

( surveys at 2am )

( so according to my brother bill, this is my ethnic breakdown: )

i guess with all the shit that's going on with my mom/family, i forgot that this weekend was Dore Alley. i hope all my leather loving bear friends had fun. i know that a very amazing spirit passed on this weekend, mr. handlebear himself. i only met him once but he was such a genuine spirit, my prayers are with him and his family, and all those ( Read more... )

it's weird, i'm having a really authentic moment right now... like i'm really inside my life, and i'm really doing what i do. i think it's because i've been surrounded by all my brothers and sisters for the past week. all seven of us. it's been different than i expected. i think on some level i thought that we'd all just connect and have a huge ( Read more... )

it seems like i keep getting shit on. lets review, shall we?

( ?la vida, la vida siempre pues no? )

it seems like spending time in a hospital is like being inside a timewarp. i was there with my mom from 9:30am and i left around 6:45pm and it was just weird, the day has just gone by. i feel like i'm in limbo. i want to help her but the only thing she can do now is heal, and try and get back to her active self. doctors want her walking 3-4 ( Read more... )

mom made it through her surgery. surgeon said it went very well. now the recovery starts. now the work starts. too tired to sleep, how does that even make sense?

nothing prepares you for shit like this, even consoltations and medical knowledges, survivability statistics, critical care criterion.. nothing. i havent slept since sunday. ive spoken with more relatives in the past two days than in my entire life. im meeting my uncle javier today for the first time. im beside myself. i stay busy so i dont ( Read more... )

mom is having open heart surgery tuesday the 26th at 2pm. send happy thoughts. will know more later.