one for that vacuum in my chest still ever present. another for starting nursing school tomorrow and the loss of prospective summer fun. then there's getting to page 510 where cal's father meets his untimely death -- sailing over and into the waters in his 1975 cadillac. the last one is for having to come back. my present estrangement can only ( Read more... )

despite downing an entire bottle of wine on the darkened weaver street lawn, biking home with that tell-tale heavy head, and passing out in mere seconds. i woke up two hours later, completely sober, heart racing, and thinking the world is ending right now. i tried to go back to sleep but i couldn't get those physics equations out of my head. exam ( Read more... )

biked home proud with my stash of homemade truffles spiced with cardamom, cinnamon, cayenne pepper, and brown sugar. future endeavors will be of those flavored with rose water and lavender petals and honey and buds of cannabis. i do believe that i am due to make some fruit pie this week, also ( Read more... )

dear reader,

i probably called you at 2 a.m. to wish you a happy easter. so sorry. i wanted to eat rainbows and conduct pudding orgies.

( testicle salad. )

this morning, while downing some sweet sweet water, an HOH molecule or two got caught in my throat and the pain travelled down my neck and through the nerve pathways to my nipples ( Read more... )

i can't even begin to explain or understand the origin of my physical and verbal actions, as of late. i could say that i'm sorry to everyone but i don't know why i feel no sorrow. i really don't and i'm sorry for that.

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i got into unc's nursing school. wooooooow.

i have a tendency to be too hasty but i think i made the correct decision this time. my attentions are now turned towards something novel and it feels right. [oh, new "relationships"]. we haven't

i got called back for an interview tomorrow for the radiology school.

wish me luck times two.

the profound crises of human identy brought on by living with a lie, a crises which in turn makes live possible, certainly possesses a moral dimension as well; it appears, among other things, as a deep moral crisis in society. >A PERSON WHO HAS BEEN SEDUCTED BY THE CONSUMER VALUE SYSTEM, WHOSE IDENTITY IS DISSOLVED IN AN AMALGAM OF HE ACCOUTREMENTS ( Read more... )