i havent been on here in months and months..thought id pop on and see whats cooking..not much ( Read more... )

tomarrow is my birthday at bbq bar. come and see me and hang out.
love you all

its all the same. im at work and im bored. its 4am. i have to pee. and my manager is sleeping on the stairs around the corner. i learned nothing about my job and its my 1st night training. life is good, im gonna go raid the hotels fridge and eat me some pastry. and then im gonna go home at 7am and sleep. my car sucks. i want to get tattooed again. ( Read more... )

when it rains it pours and its a shit storm right now. next year has got to be better. stress stress stress. im glad though that things are going well for most everyone else. makes me feel better about my life falling apart. gives me hope that it will get better.

shit gets bad and then yay!! it gets somewhat better. awesome. banked this weekend at work...lets hope that continues..donald is coming home from tour early and there have been talks of a reconciliation and im not getting my hopes up, but when you love someone thats all you can do..just wont get them up too much. he misses me :) its awesome ( Read more... )

this weekend i experienced 2 anxiety attacks at work...i kinda walked out of my job friday because i felt like i was suffocatng and needed to get the hell out of there before i explode or go insane from all the people and noise. ive never had one before so its kinda freaking me out. one aspect of my life goes to shit and now it seems like its all ( Read more... )

this person confuses me..as do they all..but this ones different. so much there but this person wont let me in and i think that they want to. maybe not..but apparently ive been the only one and its really fucking wiht my head. and i did a bad thing the other night.
im drunk. kevin, be nice.

went to see dillinger escape plan and 3 other hardcore bands ive never heard of...awesome show and towards the end of the night i just wanted to go to bbq and relax. but of course one of my friends wanted to hook up with the merch guy and he invited us to hang out with the bands at planet hollywood. im not into being a groupie nor hanging around a ( Read more... )

me + drinking + livejournal= bad news ( Read more... )

the only reason i stay at gators is because of my manager, but i found out last night thst he is being transfered and well, this to me was a sign that i should quit. plus i got a letter in the mail from the childcare agency saying that gray now qualifies for assistance and thats awesome because i dont have to pay for child care..because i cant ( Read more... )