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Bump.
I was doing pretty well for the past few days. I've struggled some today, especially over the last three hours or so. I started to get into panic mode, thinking "I don't want to be alone, don't leave me alone, why is there nobody here?" I really struggle with extended down time. I can't just feel like I'm doing x, y, z by myself. I just see ( Read more... ) -
Late night ramblings
It always amazes me that there are so many people so perfectly matched to me in this same city, this same neighborhood, that I will never have the joy of meeting simply because our paths never manage to cross. When I think about this I picture an overhead view of a city at night and then zoom out and up, watching cars zoom by in fast forward, ( Read more... ) -
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Another night feeling lonely. I guess lonely is a good sign, to some degree. It implies that I want to be around people, which is a pleasant surprise ( Read more... ) -
Stop, a pause. Not even a poem. Dis. Connec. T.
Candle flickering, light turned on low ( Read more... ) -
The aftermath
Last night was rough. Another crash, another night sleeping at Jackie's ( Read more... ) -
Returning from the great beyond
I am resurrecting this dead journal. Apparently my current life situation necessitates typing out my thoughts and feelings to internet strangers. Perhaps this journaling is simply to sort out and determine what my life situation really is. Left alone for too long, determining fact from fiction has become a bit of a cloudy mess ( Read more... ) -
Ready to be done
I am very much ready to be done here. I just feel completely bored, mentally unstimulated. I've figured out how to do well in school and I'm ready to feel challenged again. I've applied to about forty jobs at this point and have either been rejected, waitlisted (basically rejected), or have never heard back. It's frustrating that my hard work ( Read more... ) -
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Today I died my hair, but apparently it's uneven and looks pretty bad. I've been at work and haven't really checked it out. -
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So Obama won, but at the same time some states are banning gay marriage.