Why does this shit always seem to find me? And to make it worse, this situation is UN-FUCKING-CANNY to what happened to me in high school. But I'm thankful for two things now - I know how to deal with it better, and I can be fingerprinted and clear my name. I HATE people some times. THIS type of shit makes me want to get out of the hell-hole I' ( Read more... )

I finally did what was right for me, and I broke up with Eddie on December 19th ... I absolutely hate that it was so close to the holidays, but I guess some times you have to do what's best, and more than likely if I hadn't done it then, my holidays would have been miserable, or filled with worries and questions. I had told him that I didn't want ( Read more... )

Me: Do you see us together for a long time ( Read more... )

Okay, so last night I went over to my friend Amber's house, and since the last time I've seen her, she's moved to a little house out in BFE, off of Cummings Rd, and then off of Hebron if anyone knows the area. Anyway, I'm on my way back about 2am or so, and I'm on South Rugby and all of a sudden BAMBI prances out in front of the expedition ( ( Read more... )

I've been home for Thanksgiving break since Wednesday, and honestly I've missed him more in these 5 days than I ever have ... even over the summer - and I definitely feel like I'm the only one feeling that way and it sucks. My heart gives one explanation for it, but my head gives another ... the one I don't like and don't want to admit to. Things ( Read more... )

I have no idea. I really don't. I have bad thoughts but I push them out of my mind because I think that what will be will be. I'm not sure I trust him like I did, I don't feel that he is as into me as he was so I feel like there's more room for someone else to take my place. But I try to stay optimistic because I do believe that I will get what I ( Read more... )

it's becoming more obvious that he will never feel for me the way that i once thought he would. i don't really know how to react to that or what to do about it. it's not that i'm wishing for him to feel a certain way for me ... well okay, i guess I am, but i am also fully aware that doing so is completely out of my control. i don't know if i can ( Read more... )

Please don't sing sad songs for me ( Read more... )

Things are looking up ... my brother is doing better, as well as other aspects of my life ( Read more... )

no news ... is good news.