sometimes i forget that i have this account, lol. its nice though to go in and just let everything off your chest. my sister pissed me off today, called me a bitch under her breath. i know, i know its just a word but the thing is i put up with her fucking bullshit for 10 years and every little thing she says that pisses me off, like, really really ( Read more... )

The other day it was snowing pretty steadily and it was so fucking pretty. i just sat there and watched it for a really long time. it was one of those things you didnt want to pull away from. i havent been on here in a really long time. i cant go back and see my friends past entries, imean i can see like the past 3 but i cant see any more past that ( Read more... )

mom woke up at 1 in the morning with a bloody nose which was unusual. i dont like unusual, there has been too much of going on lately (wow i actually spelled going right the first time, yay me). it was gushing out of both nostrils and quite frankly freaking both of us the fuck out. if anyone here really knows me, they should know that i am insanely ( Read more... )

my mom is sick, great, right? shes not supposed to get sick because of her white blood count while she is on chemo. people are freaking out because i havent been coming out or calling them, please stop. i cant deal with all of that negaitve energy, i have already made 2 extra appointments to see my therapist this week. not cool. just because im not ( Read more... )

wooohooo, bachelorette partay this weekend! i am so excited, lol. i have just realized how much preparation goes into one of these things, its insane! if i ever get married then i expect my girls to prepare as i am for someone i dont even know that well lol. i dont know if im more excited for the bars or olive garden! i love olive garden.

who sleeps from noon to 1130 and then 1 to noon the next day??? me, thats who. im an asshole.

I finally did it, i finished school. it feels so good.

so last night i had group counseling and the guy who was running it made us listen to this tape of this motivational speaker or something and he was saying that the only reason we get mad at things or people is because we make ourselves out to be upsetable. i didnt quite agree. i mean sure we could go through life not being mad about anything but ( Read more... )

I worked from 10:30 this morning until midnight tonight. damn, im whipped. so this guy needs to leave me alone. ive known him a long time and all but hes just now showing an interest and hes kind of turning out to be psycho. i mean he really has no reason to think i like him, i dont act like i do, we just go to the bar together. anyone else not ( Read more... )

Happy Cinco de Mayo! I have no idea what im doing tonight but it will involve alcohol and hopefully a funnel with a tube. Of course that would require money.