I think I'm at the point in my school year when faces look very familiar and it feels more like a home than a school.

And in other news, the vomitous RIC girl from New Years was in my kickboxing class yesterday, and it was awkward.

Maybe there's something in looking forward to my Mondays again. Or in, for a moment, being blind to everything save the color of an iris.  But even this I ponder with distracted disinterest. These people, I realize, will be erased from me once restlessness settles in. They are a part of me only superficially, for a week, a month, whatever. But a ( Read more... )

It's a strange sort of elation. With no plotline connecting my days together, each day impresses me as a separate entity, a separate lifetime than the last. I'm just sort of...existing. Happy and disconnected. And--cautious? Boundless, reasonless joy seems shaky and unstable ( Read more... )

I'm not going to lie, this was pretty much a perfect day.

I never understood it when people decide what age they want to get married. I mean, let's say that I wanted to be married by 30. Great. What happens then? Even if I don't marry the next available bachelor I find after my 30th birthday, I still might feel pressured to marry some run-of-the-mill awesome boyfriend that I could potentially live without ( Read more... )

There was a familiar poster on the wall. Waves--the room had been covered in waves. It took me a moment. I tested the waters. Do I remember them? Do I care? Sometimes, I conjecture, we let the uncomfortable images surface just to see if there's a reaction, to see if perhaps a certain long-forgotten part of us has somehow managed to stay alive.  ( Read more... )

I believe in
forgiveness 
complete honesty
screwing social expectations
screwing fear
being happy

I know this may be overgeneralizing, but I feel like nothing has gone wrong since--what--October? Everything's been generally really good. I feel giddy. There is so much life buzzing around me. I'm just so...happy.

I'm at such a positive place in my life.

I've been really unmotivated since New Years. Not because of anything that's happened. I don't know why. We've had beautiful weather, but all I've felt like doing is sitting on the couch all day, doing nothing. I talk myself out of doing my errands. I'm very happy, just unmotivated.