havent smoked in over 2 months...... (except for that one night ;) ) ........ finding out that im outa shape......... gonna try and stop doing all drugz all together........ navy still hasnt told me my shipping date :(......... plan on exercising everyday........... depression = black hole .... need to soup up my space ship or somthin........

so last weekend was the best ive had in a fuckin while.....finally got laid (it had been 2 months)...anyways im once again trying to pass another fucking drug test so i can join the navy... it seems like the amount of times I fuck up are endless... but o well one day im sure ill quit smoking (i havents smoked in over 2 weeks). I moved back home ( Read more... )

life goes on .... friends are not what they seem....everyone scrambles to fill that void of loneliness, by trying to make impossible relationships come true ( Read more... )

i'am confronted with yet another problem....one of my potiental roommates just decided that he now wants to live by himself.....so i have about a week and a half to move out, and i have no idea where im gonna live!?!?!??? i can only hope that either my parents or my sister will sign for an apartment for me since i have no credit and therefore ( Read more... )

so we're in the midst of summer and it's either really fucking hot and humid or its rainy and humid...hope to rent a 3-4 bedroom house with some friends, or we will get an apt.....

Well, as I sit here alone at home on another boring friday night, I wonder wtf i am doing with my life.... so I have officially decided to JOIN THE GOD DAMN NAVY!!! I mean it's only 4 years, and when I'm done i'll come out with around $35,000. I mean all I have to do is slightly risk my life which I estimate is only worth a couple hundred dollars ( Read more... )

Friday's here! Another night of drinking, smoking pot, or doing some other random drugs.... My LJ is becoming more predictable and boring...I guess I will go through my early 20's doing the same damn things week after week.

day by day i become more restless and more worried about what lies in my future.....

I have court on the 20th for my DWI...but I already know I just have to pay a $500 fine plus courtfees... i hope i can get a decent job with a dwi on my record.

what a journal............

I'm not sure what's more hard to find, a decent job or a decent girl friend?? But there are always the comforts of DRUGS!..... ;(

Whats some good music to download??? or movies??? or books to read???

One does'nt think about the every day decisions that can completely change your life, until after they happen ( Read more... )