Holy buckets. Gee whiz. Life has been pretty aggravating. And/or pathetic. I haven't been writing in my LJ much, because these days my blog of choice is my MySpace Blog. Alas, I haven't even written in that in a while. I'm kind of taking a sabbatical, so to speak. I need to concentrate on education, getting in shape, getting a job. I'm as close to ( Read more... )

It's been a while. Lately I haven't been writing much, and I'd love to say that I don't have time. I wish that were the truth. But lately I've had nothing but time... Just no will, no energy. Nothing's working out, nothing I do is okay... I fail at everything I try, and I'm absolutely sick of it. I don't even know what to do... I failed at getting ( Read more... )

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It has been way too long since I've blogged. But great news! On Sunday night I purchased a notebook to use as a journal (and I named it Jenniga) And I've already filled six pages! Whee! I'm so excited. And I don't feel like typing right now, so I scanned the last three pages, since they're the only ones without anything TOO personal... Umm good ( Read more... )

I want to get a cat and name it Bootis. I want to cook a five star meal for my friends. I want to be able to pay off all debts to my friends and parents. I want to be able to walk across the country. I want to drive with nowhere to go. I want to sleep outside on a beautiful day. I want to write a novel with a quil pen. I want to sail down a river ( Read more... )

Just DownIt's raining, not pouring ( Read more... )

The leaves have been dead for so long but it's just setting in now, as I kick them about. I'm walking along, faster than anyone should be on a day like today. The air in my lungs, it's the friend to the end. Tonight might be it, so I should just pretend. But this chapter's almost over, and I'm not sure I'm ready for something new. Are you? I just ( Read more... )

It's just past 8 AM. It's 25 degrees. It's been light outside for nearly a full three hours already. Life is peachy here in Fairbanks and wowzers I'm a failure ( Read more... )

I complain too much. As I'm doing right now. And I argue too much. And you can't deny that because if you did, I'd argue that I do, thus proving my point. These two things have been brought to my attention lately. A good friend said that I bring out their bad side, and I got to wondering why. Sure I'm kinda loony and really annoying, and maybe it ( Read more... )

Today (Friday) was good. Uncool, but good. I talked to my dearest Ashley and Alec on the telephone for a while in the morning, though a lot of it was them talking about things that had nothing to do with me and then complain about how I was being boring and/or not talking. And then went to sleep. As usual, I slept longer than I wanted to, but then ( Read more... )