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[buddy_ruckus]

so this past week was just plain crazy. i had a major test in all three of my classes. stupid huh

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[musickillsme]

carter, that's awful about your grandmother. all you can do now, if she can't remember her own memories, remember the ones you have with her. those are pearls you'll treasure your entire life.

[buddy_ruckus]

thanks alison. i think the hardest thing is not to be there with her. i mean when my other grandmother was sick, i was close by, but now, it feels like so much is happening without me being there with her...

it sucks, but you're right. i do remember the good times with her and that is what is most important.

[buddy_ruckus]

i love you too. like so much. like you're the only thing that can make me consistantly happy. you came over and we talked and stuff. and thank you. i love you i love you i love you and i'll see you tomorrow.

[azagorov]

I want to say something about all those good things! those are some amazing good thigns you got going on Carter. A tribute for the Apollo would be pretty intense, i mean like the part in the movie where everyones real sad but triumphant. yeaaaa
ANNND you should dance more often.
YOu are so lucky to get to meet Lisa. I never have.
Wally is kind of always a little bit funny. always.
Use your time, have good days.
love, Annie

ps. hi central! I THINK WE BEAT YOU IN BASKETBALL. i think

[buddy_ruckus]

they were good things. but i meant the apollo theatre...i think you might be talking about the space shuttle and the movie and all. and i think i will start dancing more. totally. man...you suck for beating us in basketball...actually, i'm not sure i've even ever watched a basketball game here, so i hardly care at all.

carter

[3outta]

I'm just glad we decided to only do coke once friday night. I'm not sure we would have made it through the night otherwise.

and the goat race? Do you even remember that? That was crazy.

[buddy_ruckus]

yea man. that coke was way way too much. but i think it was necessary. these things usually are.

that goat race was intense. i'm just glad i won.

[ibjorn]

Hey Carter, it has been a while dude. I didn't know your grandma was sick. That sucks. I know exactly what that is like. It was weird when my grandma first got it. She would just forget little things. But then she didn't recognize anyone, or she would wake up at night and hit my grandpa with a broom because she didn't know who he was. What a crappy disease. I remeber this one time though when she was pretty far along and she didn't know who any of us were and we were all visiting her. I think my mom laughed or some thing and my grandma looked at her and said "Esther?" And then the memory was gone, but just for that instant she could remember. It is the little things like that that mean so much. The whole thing is like this really long goodbye. Sometimes you just wish that it would be over, but the little times that they remember are worth it. I will be praying for you.

[buddy_ruckus]

hey man. yea. long time no talk. i remember you were telling me a while back about your sick grandma. it is a horrible disease. it's almost cute when they do silly little things, but when it comes down to it, it's just kinda freaking depressing. like when you really realize why they're doing the silly cute things. kinda sucks the cute right out of it. i'm just hoping that there might be a little bit of a breakthrough when we do go down ther eventually. it just seems like it would be a little easier if i had a moment something like the one with your grandma. but anyway, hopefully we can talk sometime soon, and i'll be thinkin of you man. later.