I am at the library right now at my tutoring session. MY LAST SESSION!! MY SUMMER BEGINS AT 3:01 PM!! YIPEE!! I am bored as fuck right now and I can't wait to go home. I am still really depressed about the whole Brian issue but I hopefully will be happy soon. I will always love and care about him (in a plutonic way) and I will never give up ( Read more... )

Ok... So I took Lindsay's advise and I tried to talk to Brian about my feelings and shit. Before I knew it, Brian and I were throwing punches. I am a fucking retard. I was balling all night and all today. I barely got a single breath in. Brian probably wishes I was dead and probably never wants to see my face again. I want to die so bad ( Read more... )

You know... I give and I give and I give. I never get anything back. I need to stop giving. Nobody appreciates me. Why do I keep giving to people? The people who I give to never give back to me. Not anymore. I can't let this happen.

I am really incredibly sad. I don't know how to stop feeling sad. I want all of my sadness to go away. Why do I deserve to be sad all of the time? Gotta bounce.

Once upon a time there was a boy. He lived in a nice house, in a nice town. He had lots of nice friends too. One day, one of the boy's friends introduced him to her friend. He was a very nice person with a very nice smile. After that, the two boys became great friends and eventually became lovers. The two boys would always spend time together ( Read more... )

Ok... I totally feel like ranting in my journal. This entry may not make sence or may not be in order. w/e ( Read more... )

What You Really Think Of Your Friends

Jenn is your soulmate.
You truly love Brian.
You consider Chelsea your true friend.
You know that Trish is always thinking of you.
You'll remember Charlotte for the rest of your life.
You secretly think Becky is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times.
You secretly think that Brian is colorful, ( Read more... )

I can't stop crying... About 20 minutes ago I just started balling. I can't stop. I just want to talk to somebody. I can't do this alone. I can't even type what I'm really feeling. I feel like my emotions are taking a toll on people. I can't be emotional anymore.

I feel sad and lonely as usual today. Last night was Brian's prom. I guess he slept over somebody's house at an after party or something. I haven't talked to him at all today. I hope I do get to talk to him atleast once today. Although Brian and I aren't together, I still love him. I guess the being in love with him will soon subside. But I ( Read more... )

I am feeling really lonely right now. I don't understand why. I just saw Brian. We totally hung out for a couple hours. He is also coming over on tuesday. So why the worry? I just feel like shit right now. I feel sick. I dunno how though? I just feel kinda achey. I am also kinda sad. Tommorow is prom and I really hope Brian will call me ( Read more... )