gosh i feel like ive lost someone like someone died! but anyways i went to work all sad and mopey and icky and then around 10:30 i get a text and its from richard i was thinking about him really hard i thought he kinda sinced it but idk whatever, he just texted and said i hope you have a good day, and it was sweet ( Read more... )

its odd how people percieve you ( Read more... )

... the depression and stress settles in.. ugh fuckin hate this

grrr.

:( i hate living alone, and i hate that he is still afraid. i can never have it my way for once.

so.. there's this guy... Names Richard, his a cool guy, smart, has his head on right knows what to do with his life, funny, caring, sweet, dorkish sometimes :) but i just cant help but not to think about him, it feels so nice to have that feeling again to like someone so much it drives you crazy, he gives me butterflies every time he kisses me and ( Read more... )

updates ( Read more... )

wow its been 6 weeks since my last entry... well here is everything that has happend in my life from then to now ( Read more... )

i feel so relived that im single and not with him im happy there are times where his not out of my mind but his just there and i have no emotion for that scumbag, none at all i dont know why i told him i loved him when i actualy didnt! i feel bad but fuck it, i was just happy for the fact that was just me and him just happy it was not love, im ( Read more... )

withdrawls suck!

so i havent posted in 2 weeks. i keep forgeting to visit this site when im online and thats rare.. on the weekdays anyways so thursday was my last day of school and it was niiice, now i start my extern on monday and man oh man its going to be a rough 2 months or may be 3.. i will be working at the office im employed at from 7am-1pm with no lunch ( Read more... )

lots has happend,but things seem to be the same between me and him, and i think it will always be that way no matter what happens, i love him with my whole heart. going to a pool party at my place. dont know how it will be but we will see!