8 months today :) love with every beat of my heart <3

its been a week! and a week is more then enough time to "think about what you want" and still he wount fucking talk to me. i just want to know where i stand if its over then he needs to come and get this shit and the stupid fucking ring he got me. i want to talk to him... but he will not respond back to what i really have to say. and its not that ( Read more... )

i just want to feel loved and wanted i cant go on feeling like this, i dont deserve to feel the way i feel just for telling him how i feel, which i have been holding back for 5 months, he needs to be gentle and relize how much he hurt me when he walked out the door sunday night ( Read more... )

iam emotionaly fuckin tired of this shit. i just want to be #3 in his priority list. hell im like # 100 serously! its fuckin crap. i really dont know what to do. am i just looking too deep in this relationship should i back off and look at it with my naked eye instead of a magnifi glass? or should i just relize that it will not change and just end ( Read more... )

i just threw up.. yuck im starting to feel all that drinks i drank last night.. and it sucks. im afraid to eat anything ( Read more... )

so tomorrow my birthday... and for weeks even from when febuary started i counted down excited about it and now that its here and its tomorrow it doesnt seem like a big deal at all.. im not excited anymore :( i want to be but i dont know... this feeling im starting to feel again has come, and i dont like it, i feel like crying just to feel better ( Read more... )

life is..... good :)

so my previous journal entry was depressing but yesterday. was our 6 months and he suprised me with RING! it is soooo pretty i almost cryed when i opend the box i never thought he would buy me one. its a promise ring and i want to wear it! but its alittle too big i have to go in and get it fitted. but omg it is soooooooooooo pretty it has a pink ( Read more... )

i dont know why i feel like this ( Read more... )

there is nothing to update...

but.... tomorrow it will be ONE MONTH till my birthday!!

um and monday will be our 6 months!!!

:)