You could be happy and I won't know ( Read more... )

Are silly and selfish. That is what we are.

matthew.j.mills469
7:37 PM
sweet Jesus Jaimie I am so in love with you
7:37 PM

aaaaahhhhhhhhhh
7:38 PM

that's my love expressed as a dinosaur noise
7:39 PM

goodnight sexy
7:39 PM

mrar
7:39 PM

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Happy.

I just need the ability to disappear sometimes.

Hardly anyone makes eye contact with me. And I'm responsible for almost a year of misery for several people.

Gah.

Eric slept with a grad student on his visit to Northwestern. Hahaha.

There's a little tiny part of me that is slightly jealous and a little sad to find out he's not really what he says he is, but most of me is laughing hysterically right now.

I just wrote a very pompous e-mail, but it felt good to write it. I think I fucked myself over again, but I don't even know what to do anymore. One little mistake and I'm back in the goddamn doghouse. The best part was how last night I finally shared the whole, "I was around him all the time because he was suicidal and I was TERRIFIED," and I've ( Read more... )

First time I've really cried in front of someone like that in a while.

And she seemed unmoved. I shouldn't cry anymore.

I came back from the bathroom with this written in the middle of my annotated biography, and I thought it was too hilarious to delete completely. I'm going to miss this girl ( Read more... )

What is going on with my life? I'm starting to fix things a little, at least.