wow, lj has really changed. its been that long since i have been on here... anyways ( Read more... )

i hate it when people give titles like that. but for some reason i always do. lol. well, im going to be coming home in a few weeks. thats gonna be fun. back to good 'ol clovis. where noting happens. but now i know a lot more people, so i will be going out a lot more. im going to buy my own car, with my own money. no help from mommy and daddy. being ( Read more... )

its been quite a while since i updated. but tahts cool. i have been having a blast up here. i have met soo many amazing people, and made a ton of friends that live in fresno. met a totally cool guy, and hopefully, if my plans go accordingly ill have a job this summer and all will be swell. but i dont know what im planning on doing this summer. it ( Read more... )

now im in the room all by myself. he got a hold of a disc that i have with the guy i like, and we were talking to eachother about our feelings and i was talking about what was going on with us. he was snooping, but still. its weird. i hate knowing i hurt him. i want to call him and make sure he got home ok, but i dont know what his grandma will say ( Read more... )

or last night. he seems ok with it right now, tho he was making it out to be my fault on everything. the weird thing was, last night we talked about stuff other than us for longer than we have in a while. so idunno. i think its the best thing for right now. he can go out and party and not have to come back adn get me or get pissed when i dont get ( Read more... )

i hate having to make hard decisions, mainly when other peoples feelings are involved. i dont care if i get hurt i know i can handle it. but when i have to decide something that will hurt someone i love... i dont like it one bit! i dont know what to do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
aaaarrrrrggggghhhhh!

thats all for now.
shan

it feels so weird to kiss a guy besides jr. i dunno how to explain it. its nice to know what a kiss is going to be like, but when you get something different, its nice. lol. so i met this guy named steven up here. he is awesome. i work with him. he is a sweet heart. and a nice kisser. lol. jr and i had a talk last night with some crying and arguing ( Read more... )

oooh man, i hurt soooooooooo bad! snow boarding is so much harder than it looks. the instructer was all "just do it like this" and glided down the hill, i do it, and my arms are flailing all over the place, i looked like a retarded blue marshmellow! lol! junior just laughed all the time at me. it was fun tho. then we went to the top of the hill, ( Read more... )

its me. up in the mountains. on christmas, i just got off work. its so fun up here. playing in the snow. sharing a romm with jr. living in a trailer with 5 other guys, totally awesome. i usually work from 3 in the after noon to 12 midnight. its super cool ( Read more... )

oookay, so remember how i was all sad and what not on monday, well a lot can change in a few days. i guess my boss really wants me to work up at sierra summit, so she found a place for me to live there, and im moving up sunday. which means i ahve a lllooooooot of packing to do in a few days. which sucks because i still have to work tomorrow and ( Read more... )