my eyes are all swollen from crying too much. it looks so gross and this morning I couldn't see right. I'm wearing a LOT of makeup right now so you can't tell, but I can ( Read more... )

FYI: I am on the rag. Please disregard all previous entries within the last week. Especially any with the topic or mention of any "emotions" and/or "feelings"
That is all. THank you.

I had a long conversation with jason yesterday. "How was it?" I don't know....    :/  garbage says it all as always.

You tell me you don't love me over a cup of coffee  (actually it was in a pizza parlor)
And I just have to look away
A million miles between us
Planets crashing to dust
I just let it fade away

I'm walking empty streets hoping we might ( Read more... )

I took this same test exactly 1 year ago and scored in the high eighties. now I'm int the low 60's.

Your Ultimate Purity Score Is... CategoryYour Score Average Self-Lovin'48.3%
When I think about you - or anyone - I touch myself 65%Shamelessness61.9%
It takes a couple of drinks 79.2% Sex Drive 86.8%
The Pope is envious77.6%Straightness23.2%
Knows ( Read more... )

I give.

Let me lay it on the line ( Read more... )

okay! There was one part about my last journal entry that really came out wrong. I didn't mean "we should be together" like marriage or nothing. I just think we could be friends. and I wasn't talking about one person in specific either. because I had that problem last year. Alex Hess read my journal and well, not everthing I wrote was about him. ( Read more... )

god. I'm so depressed. Maybe I should be emo. now I hate emo and all that it stands for but maybe I should start whining and bitching in my livejournal. I've got no one else to talk to. It's not like anyone reads my journal any way ( Read more... )

so here's what happened. It all started just because I wanted a hug. He was a big guy. I love big guys. WHy do I love big guys? Because they're fun to hug! It kinda went from there. I was just thrilled that someone was actually interested in me. It the "being with someone" part of Being with someone that I like. And we didn't have sex. I didn't ( Read more... )

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