It's been a couple months since I've blogged and this time, it's not ranting, but rather writing about how happy I've been. For the most part ( Read more... )

So Tuesday morning at 3AM, Sebastian texts me, "Hey, are you home?" I responded, "Yes, I went home from work early. ha ha I'm surprised you give a damn." (I said that because the previous night I said how it felt as he didn't care about me like he used to) Well then he said "Well all I wanted to say is that I think we should take a break for a ( Read more... )

Yup, it's about that time again. Supposedly every few months I act like this. But, I really don't think it's me. I think it's him now. It's happening too often for it to be my fault ( Read more... )

granted i'm a little drunk right now but i think that all my friends are either getiting married or having babies and i[m just getting drunjk. it's okay i guess cuz i am not finacia;y ready and my boyfrien cd right now is not ready for and he is too smart to marry me. oh wells. it' s funny how all every other guy calls me beautuful except him .

Sooo last night I had a talk with Sebastian about he makes me feel like a stupid piece of shit, because he always calls me an idiot or stupid. I told him how bad it makes me feel and I felt as though he had no interest in me anymore. He said it was because it's been very stressful moving into a new house and our schedules never match. Okay, I ( Read more... )

Things lately have been really stressful. Being pulled from the corporal rank at work because of my attendance points. It's such politics. Why wasn't I warned before? I need to get a new job. Preferably in law enforcement, because right now, I'm just wasting my abilities on mind numbing patrolling. I know I am the one who makes up the difficulty of ( Read more... )

Random thoughts ( Read more... )

I am trying to figure out how I feel right now. Am I envying other people's relationships or is it mine that has something missing? I'm not a big fan of being all lovey-dovey, but I'm figuring out that I'm not a big fan of being totally independent of each other also ( Read more... )

So I've noticed, that I'm pretty happy right now, despite not having a job. and I want really badly to go back to school. So jobless and school-less, but I am happy. Been submitting my resume everywhere on monster.com ( Read more... )

So tonight, Sebastian is having a party at our house. He's graduating police academy next week, so this is pretty much the last party we're going to throw probably. Well, before he's officially law enforcement ( Read more... )