Alright, So if you called my bluff, You were right.. Congrats.. While making plans, I had a phone call from a girl that means a lot to me. Jen you are the greatest. I made a promise that must be kept. No more stupid shit. I was plannin on drinkin myself till I dropped. No more of that shit. Since I made that promise, I have felt like a person that ( Read more... )

I know I havn't posted in awhlie, but I have dealing with some shit, and i think this may very well be my last post.... I have lived the best I can and it still isn't good enough for people. I tried being the friendly stoner. Sure I made some friends along the way, but friends can't always fill the void that sits in the pit of your stomach. I ( Read more... )

death bloomz

I sit up at night without sleep with this feeling of Isolation and some serious thoughts of just being alone. I am surrounded with good people and good friends. Yet, I'm still alone. I've had my girlfriends in the past, and I'm still alone. I am alone in my world of total darkness. It is hard to describe, but more or less being in a room so lit up ( Read more... )

I am sitting in my room with the lights off and the feelings of old times that I thought, I hoped were long gone. The monitor is casting a light toward my familiar object in hand. The reflection shines so clearly in the darkness. The cold constantly sending chills up my spine. We are so cold we're so cold. Memories of what I've done in the past and ( Read more... )

So I went home over Xmas break and really havn't posted since. Although I should have, because I have so much shit that has come back now. The feelings that you have for someone you truly care about, or atleast did at one point in time, don't really ever go away. I cared about this girl and I always will, but she fucked me over. Goes and hooks up ( Read more... )

I hate how it always seems as though I am 2 people kinda fightin over myself. Itz hard to explain. I'm myself during the day, but then I sit around at night and things change. It is almost like the darkness outside reflects on me. When is it ever a good thing that everytime I step into our janky-ass elevators, I am hoping that the damn things would ( Read more... )

Alright, so I took another one of those messed up on-line quizzes that tell you something "about yourself." I was told that I'm a Hornivore. "Don't ever marry, you're The Hornivore. Roaming, sexual, subhuman.".... So I might roam a little bit, I am sexual, but subhuman, I suppose, but I don't know about that. "The Hornivores are some of the most ( Read more... )