so i go to the atm and take out another 20. gotta go to the post office and send out the barbara streisand (shudder) CD i was selling on amazon.com. thank god it was sold. so now i'm left with eighteen dollars and change. i'm pretty much poor. i haven't had a job in over 4 or 5 months. the poker deal is always up and down. i still have much ( Read more... )

so i decided today would be nothing but game day for me. i've already played online billiards and lost twice so now i'm playing monopoly and am in serious danger of losing in this game as well ( Read more... )

i'm feeling very lost right now. i want to be more fucked up. but if i do, i'll only pass out. i need to somehow get out of here. i need to somehow find a life. i need to just leave.

i just wondered what day it was today. not as in the date...but what day of the week. it's happened before, back in the college/oak/college st. daze. i think it's kind of funny at times to actually not realize this simple fact. i also find it funny that i am drinking VSQ brandy of some sort at noonish ( Read more... )

i haven't felt so useless, alone, and fucked up in my life. i've got no money and nowhere to go. i'm running out of options. and the fever is getting worse ( Read more... )

First comes greed, desperation always soon follows. It's all a recipe for disaster ( Read more... )

i have come to the conclusion that i have no idea what to do with my life.

i don't think i ever have known.

this is extremely disturbing. i can't believe our nation is coming to this. wait, yes i can. but i don't WANT to believe it is happening. but the truth of the matter is that the beginning of the end of this great society has begun quite a while ago. it's only starting to escalate and truly take shape now ( Read more... )

so..seeing as i have two journals now, there is no point to me having a life is there? the other journal i've been writing in for the past year+ has a very small community (only about 100 active users of which maybe 30-40 are active for more than 3 days out of the week). i enjoy it, but i have learned that you can't really post too often in one ( Read more... )

i don't know why i signed up for a second online journal. especially at livejournal. i mean this place is just too big and ugly and boring. but i have friends on here. so i guess i can spy on them now and berate their journal entries. spanky, you're going to regret this. really.

i gotta go drink more. i can't believe i signed up for this