three months with out LJ
felt i should post

wow, an update. >.<
what to say, what to say.
i dont care.
not like anyone is going to even care to comment.
mainly cause i HAVE nothign to say. >.<
meow mix meow mix meow mix.

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What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams?
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness,
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
Because I can't hold on ( Read more... )

One thing, I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind
I designed this rhyme when I was obsessed with time
All I know, time was just slipping away
And I watched it count down to the end of the day
Watched it watch me and the words that I say
The echo of the clock rhythm in my veins
I know that I didn’t look out below
And I ( Read more... )

amazing, only 3 people have noticed a change in my mood
funny thing is, I HAVENT SEEN ANY OF THESE THREE PEOPLE IN A WHILE
people i see everyday at school havent noticed when i was a bit more depressed unless i tell them
but the three people who noticed, noticed instantly while i was talking to them online
one did make a mistake of it and thought i was ( Read more... )

not really sure what to type here, but yea oh well, anywho yea
my b-day party was really fun, if some people went it could have been better but oh well
i loved it anyways
i missed my worcester friends SOOO much
seeing Shawn, Katie, Amanda, and Josh was nice
aslo seeing Amy was sweet
we played Wii and DDR, twas fun
after we got yelled at we played in my ( Read more... )

so i am seriously contemplating breaking up with maggie. i really dont want to, nor do i think i can, but something has to be done. she hasnt spoken to me in the past two days (well she has but like not even close to a quick conversation) and the past (i think) three lunches i was really depressed but she hadn't noticed, yet today ben "looked" sad ( Read more... )

There lyrics are all I have felt today. Today was not a good day. I am sick, I was depressed, and not ONE person even bothered to ask why.

"Will you still hold me when you see what I have done?
Will you still kiss me the same when you taste my victim's blood?"

"I'm done with promises
I'm taking blood oaths
Feels likes you could kiss my imperfections
My ( Read more... )

what emotion i am supposed to be feelign right now, i am very fucking ecstatic that they FINALLY made me a junior at OHS, but im kinda sad that maggie is mad at me for the whole handcuffs and shot glas deal....that and i didnt get to kiss her at lunch or afterschool )=, oooh and im scared...cause i have ms krantz for period 7 english 3 and i dont ( Read more... )