"Because I hate myself and I want to die."

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Had my first-ever experience as a pit musician tonight! Bizarre that it was for Shrek: The Musical... but I'll take it (a gig's a gig, eh?). I'm subbing tonight and tomorrow for Denise, which means the music is all clearly marked with notes 'n' sich, so it's pretty easy to keep up (a bonus, as I'm finding that it's somewhat wild trying to keep up ( Read more... )

I think I finally get Avril's "Anything But Ordinary"--now that I've realized I'm almost 25 and I've never really lived.

How can someone walk this earth for a quarter of a century and have nothing to show for it?

It will never be enough to simply have loved or breathed.

and...

goodbye! *voip*

Well, I've now been at my job for a week and two days, officially--in effect I've only gone in five days so far. (The day that was supposed to be my first day ended up being a snow day!) But I've logged 22 hours in those five days (yay!) and I think waking up at a normal time, being in an office, working between 5-8 hours non-stop, and not having ( Read more... )

I've been trying for over a year to get to an emotional state in which I'm actually honestly secure about being single. The past two or three weeks have seen a lot of improvement on that front, mostly with the help of Wendy's blog First Person Singular (http://firstpersonsingular.org/Read more... )

I got the job.

:)

Oh, LJ. How are you ( Read more... )

I take back the "narcissistic" comment from my previous entry, it was 4 in the morning and I was delirious. No one would give a shit if I wasn't around anymore.