so mucvh going through my head it's a livejournal night. I went to phoenix with clint since he forgot his books. On the way there he started talking about our wedding and what I would want. i commented that I want a small beach wedding and he basically dismissed that idea completely. and then on the way back hours later he made a comment about how ( Read more... )

tell me which you think are true.

1. I used to cut myself just to escape my family.
2. I've contemplated suicide on more then one occasion.
3. I ultimately fear getting a divorce.
4. I'm in love.
5. I hate Yuma.
6. I hate going to the doctors.
7. I'm a complusive email checker.
8. I feel unloved often.
9. I wish I had an eating disorder.

She is a person that loves yet has major trust issues. She says one thing and means the other but then at times she says exactly what she means and doesn’t leave much doubt about it. She is completely indecisive and stresses when forced to make a decision. She is giving others the benefit of the doubt yet punishing herself for not living up to ( Read more... )

Is this all a mistake? I mean all of this. everything. Is it???

this is such a weird feeling. the p[lane took off and I saw the city of tucson that is my home now and it's weird. I am so excited to go home to kentucky but I feel as if it's not my home anymore. there are moments where i call kentucky home but a lot of my life is in tucson. I've built up a family of sorts in tucson and I almost feel guilty about ( Read more... )

I feel the need to document what I believe in at the moment becasue I seem to be forgetting, well at least not vocalizing it lately. so here goes...

( I believe )

I think it's time for a public entry so here goes ( Read more... )

I went dancing in the tucson rain and it made me happy.

this is the second half of something I wrote on saturday and I have nothing better to do then type it here and share with everyone who won't read it ( Read more... )

I can't decide if today is an overall good day or a bad day. is that weird. at the moment I want to be home. I want the cold weather and the leaves changing I want my cave of a bedroom but it's not happening. I need to see my brothers and make sure Megan's okay. I can't go back though. figurativley and literaly. the cave of a bedroom is at my dad's ( Read more... )