Ok long time no entry, I know Im so slow these days. I just havent had the motivation to sit and type anything out here. Im sitting now with the wind blowing into the window and a cheerful bird chirping outside. I wonder how he can sound so happy..... Maybe hes not, its just a cover. Wow.. Im losing it now that Im sitting here infront of the ( Read more... )

The past month has been filled with so much hurt. The kind that people dont just "get over" in a day or 2 and move on with their lives. A lot of the hurts that I have had in the past month have been enough to last people a whole lifetime. I feel like this was some huge lesson in life, some kind of teaching from someone that I cant see, but someone ( Read more... )

Damn this flu!!! I am missing the pageant as we speak!! This morning I was going to try to go, but I fell asleep. Got up at 2 and proceeded to pass out in the floor and almost throw up. Not a fun feeling. I am not in a very good mood over this and I really wanted to compete today!!! I hope that the one next month wont be postponed and I will be ( Read more... )

Tomorrow I go to work at the salon at 8:30 in the morning. I need the money and this couldnt have come at a better time for me with the pageant coming up. Robbie has offered to do my hair and makeup and I am so excited now ( Read more... )

The Rules: The first player of this game starts with the topic of "5 Guilty Pleasures" and people who get tagged need to write an LJ entry about 5 Guilty Pleasures as well as state this rule clearly. In the end you need to choose 5 people to be tagged and list their names ( Read more... )

Not much news to report.. things are starting to feel "normal" around here again. Im in a big cleaning spree of the house. I dont know whats gotten into me, but I feel compelled to clean constantly, so I guess things could be worse. Its my way of dealing with everything and feeling like Im accomplishing something ( Read more... )

Intro ( Read more... )

This entry is going to seem selfish, cold hearted and maybe even rude to some readers, but its something I need to do for myself ( Read more... )

I spent the morning at an old friend's grave ( Read more... )

Just a quick update to let everyone know that my uncle passed away at 7:40 this evening.

Im still in shock and will write more when I can think straight