i dont know what to say because i dont know how i feel because i dont know how he feels about me or how i feel about myself because i know that i will never be able to play proper footy and will never know how good i could be. I am going to be a failure at everything i do...from school to sport to family and guys....i dont want to be average i want ( Read more... )

Why wont somebody love me?

I've never felt that much pain build up and burst. I've never felt it burn me so badly. I hurt so much I wanted to be sick ( Read more... )

I think I'm losing my ability to like people....Have I been that stone cold for that long that now I've permanantly blocked my feeling for people? So many other people trust themselves with other people. They trust that those people will keep liking them. I dont get it...frustrating really...

It's funny how i step into the office and take a seat wondering how I'm going to be able to spend the whole 45 minutes talking. It seems impossible..'yeah 15 minutes and I'll be ready to get out of here ( Read more... )

I have started work in the Mafrra, IGA Deli. Woo...money. No more depending on mum. No more withdrawing money from the bank and it enever going back. No more looking at things i need and never getting them. I am INDEPENDANT ( Read more... )

I desperately wished people would see me for who I am. Someone worth knowing. Somehow it came true. I don’t remember trying it was just…me ( Read more... )

Fuck me the freeza was bad. So fucking bad. Boring as all hell. Bad bands. Bad people. No dance music. Really, I wish I had stayed home to watch the footy ( Read more... )

I feel like I’m doing something I haven’t done in so long…write down how I feel ( Read more... )

The Easter Tournament has arrived. This is what I have been looking forward to for months. This is what I've been practising as much as possible for months. This was the weekend that i was hoping the excess weight I've seemed to have put on would be off. That, unfortunately hasnt happened ( Read more... )