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I Dreamt That You Were Alive. Really Alive. I Dreamt Of Your Eyes.
I am a bottle. I am full. I am filled to capacity with emotion. I can not empty the bottle all at once. I have a hard time emptying the bottle at all. So I force emotion from the bottle. I turn it over and I hit it to make room for more ( Read more... ) -
Everybody's Got A Dark Side. Do You Love Me? Can You Love Mine?
Some days I feel like I'm wasting my life. I've always looked at my life almost like a 12 step program. A junkie on life. I have to climb hurdle after hurdle to get to the next until I reach the top of the stairs, and I die. But right now I feel like when I get to step 12 it will be as if I was skipping every other stair. I was moving along so ( Read more... ) -
Shoot Each Word Into Your Veins, Sing Until You Can't Feel Pain
The weekdays drag on. The weeknights are even longer. I yearn for the weekends. When you torture yourself with something the weekdays become your mortal enemies. Going to work and spending most of your day alone or in silence is unforgiving. Your mind beats on your insides repeatedly. You only eat out of necessity not out of hunger. The nights aren ( Read more... ) -
Maybe In Another Life
It's weird. I used to know you. I used to know you better than I knew myself. But you've become a fleeting memory. My horrible mind has taken to playing tricks on me, and it has taken you out. Pictures are slowly become vacant memories. Slowly your things have disappeared from my world, and so have you. Sometimes I swear I have even forgotten the ( Read more... ) -
For The Life Of Me, I Cannot Remember
Sorry, been gone longer than I wanted to. A lot happening ( Read more... ) -
Getting Back To The Basics
So 2 weekends ago earth_sucks, superradmike, Jon and I kicked it old school and went to Flashback Weekend. It's a horror convention. It's literally been I think upwards of 4 1/2 years since we went to a convention. I miss them SO MUCH. I'm not even the biggest horror fan, but just to get out for a weekend and do something weird and different is awesome. danny_exclm_pnt even hung out on ( Read more... ) -
Oh, I Would Kill For The Atlantic, But I Am Paid To Make Girls Panic When I Sing
I think I'm almost completely out of my breakup depression. I go through it following all break ups. There are always parts that hurt. Even in the years to follow. But the hardest hit hasn't come yet. The hardest part is always seeing the former other half with someone new. It doesn't matter where you are in your life when it finally happens. You ( Read more... ) -
Yeah, Not Everyone Can Love The Way This Feels
I think about death on the regular, and I get really fucking depressed. I mean I know if I play my cards right I've probably got another 50 to 60 more years ahead of me but still ( Read more... ) -
Just You Wait And See, How Much You Can Bleed
I've been feeling weird since the break up. Is this what loneliness feels like? I can never identify the feeling when it comes on. It's a hard transition going from talking to someone everyday and seeing them a ton and then going to random texts every so often. I've been pondering relationships a lot. The fact that you don't every really 100 ( Read more... ) -
Scream My Lungs Out, Try And Get To You
I'm drunk. And I'm in a bad mood. Not how I pictured my night going.
I went to a wedding with Nicole tonight. 4th of July wedding, stupid yes. I was afraid it was going to be awkward because we just broke up but it wasn't bad at all. We didn't really know anyone at the wedding, but we ended up meeting this awesome couple that were super awesome so ( Read more... )