Most of 2019 was spent in a shame storm. I felt shame in the end of my marriage, that I was allowing him to continue to live in the house (from January thru June), and in the fact that my kids would be from a broken home. Shame and guilt are powerful forces. I didn't tell anyone about it for a couple of months due to this. I just wallowed, a coward ( Read more... )

My pregnancies were both easy. I feel very lucky in that regard. I was nauseated but was rarely sick. With my second I was exhausted but I also had a toddler, so that's just the way that goes ( Read more... )

Let's talk about Postpartum depression. Or even just the huge influx of hormones that are released once your baby is born. After my first son was born I was shaken. It wasn't just the "baby blues," it was sobbing in the closet. It was counting down the hours until bedtime. It was feeling like my life was over. It was anxiety attacks and waking in ( Read more... )

Uh. Hm. So it's been a hot minute since I navel gazed around here ( Read more... )

Our son is one! Even though his birthday came and went it feels like it continued for several weeks after. Yes, he was sufficiently overwhelmed and now has a ton of new trucks. He loves things with wheels so he doesn't seem to mind ( Read more... )

About a year ago I left my job. I was going to be learning more Spanish, doing from scratch cooking, and finally keeping on top of housework. And for two weeks I did just that. Then I had a baby and everything changed. I was really, really under prepared as to how much work a tiny human would be and how much time it would take. Where I have learned ( Read more... )

i'm not sure if anyone even still comes here. my postings have been sporadic at best, non-existent at worst. what can i say? i kinda knew this would happen. for some reason in the spring i felt the need to justify my staying at home. i was going to do all sorts of from-scratch cooking and learn spanish in my free time. apparently, i grossly ( Read more... )

this year my holiday wish list is pretty basic.  i'm not in need/want of anything extravagant.  my wants are quite simple ( Read more... )

jacob fell asleep in his car seat when we left to run errands (usually he hates the car) and is still asleep and we've been back over twenty minutes.  a rare nap gift!  he naps in the morning on me pretty consistently but getting him to take an afternoon nap is usually a huge struggle.  lately i haven't been worried about it.  he sleeps well at ( Read more... )

i might not be buying anything for myself in a year; however, i have a little guy to buy for.  really isn't buying for him buying for me anyway?  it's not like he knows what he is wearing.  like andy said the other day: he doesn't care if he's dressed cute it's for us.  he still has clothes to wear that are currently too big/toys that are too ( Read more... )