I’m very bummed out today. Odd as it sounds this sadness mixed with joy. My Best friend Doris will be a mom at any time. She went into labor at 1am and we’ve been patiently awaiting Annabel’s grand entrance for weeks now. It’s a happy day. Thing is yesterday I kept trying to call my mom to schedule birthday plans for my brother and couldn’t reach ( Read more... )

Communications gone south
what's the point when the ears have no need
and the selfish walk on

don't gamble on
excuses fallen flat

I'm done with bullshit appeasements
that never pan out
just a line you don't mean
and theres never any follow up

gah!

virtual reality
virtually but not quit
real

again staring at 0101
a flash in the pain
coming undone

a petting zoo for the amputated
eyes drawn down delighting
as circumscribed
my plight is fleating

inoperable agent
the quiz ill-fated

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Baby weight sucks… It’s never easy settling on things you thought you’d put behind you. I’m finding myself with a bucket load of mixed emotion’s on a constant bases now. I was pleased with my kids being old enough that it afforded me some freedoms and now with the two littles I can do much of nothing let alone sleep.. Or have time to myself ( Read more... )

We just talked and I’m even more confused then before. This distance is deafening. And I’m so angry and hurt… what’s it going to take

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Aggravation to no end…… I’m still not over being angry nor is the other half

But there is no time to mull it over or let it run its course

I’ve got to be done with it and move along

What do you do when sorry go unheard or accepted in a half assed way…

It makes me feel half as important being brushed aside

Is this how I make him feel?

So it’s no surprise my dad didn’t show….Just as the mom predicted. What a shocker… time and again I’ve played the parental roll when it came to both my mom and day and here I am again an adult with kids of my own finding they still haven’t taken there rolls seriously and again I’ve been left to limbo searching for a solution on navigating a ( Read more... )

And she strikes again ( Read more... )