A giant unnecessary pot of chicken soup. I don't even have anyone to help me eat it. Cooking seemed like it would be comforting? Maybe it was ( Read more... )

Sometimes the things that other people say resound in me so much that I forget, I also, have a voice.
I think part of the trick is just realizing that.
I think the biggest part of the trick, though, is remembering to utilize my own voice.
It sounds simple. But by convincing myself for so long that I could never think or say such profound things has ( Read more... )

Well, it might be kind of lacking this year because of all the crazy censoring of myself that I've done, but fuck it. Here we go ( Read more... )

I am flying into Orlando on the 25th, this coming Tuesday. Very excited! I miss Aisy so much and it'll be good to finally meet Steven. Steven being the boy that I talked to on skype for 6 hours in my last visible entry. We're in internet love. He wrote a song for me and put it on youtube. It's sweet. He's intelligent and has his shit together and I ( Read more... )

You know, I never thought that I could feel slightly over Phil....but strangely enough, I do. We made each other miserable. He's a cool guy. We had fantastic sex. He helped me through a lot and I really appreciate that. He taught me a lot about life and how to be a person. That's good. I'll always have a special place in my heart for him. But we're ( Read more... )

Firstly, I'm breathing.
That's really rad. If you think about all the people in this world that are NOT breathing these days, I've got one up on them.
Then, I have a really good solid family that adopted me years ago and they always make sure that I have a place to go involving food, awesome sleep and wonderful words of wisdom.
I have a beautiful ( Read more... )

Human Being.
i cried when i got to read ur note........i sat and cried!!......i could feel pain,i could feel sorrow, i could feel tears!!.......it surprised me....salty warm tears falling down my face!!......haven't cried in some time and it hurt.....more then any psychical pain but an emotional pain!!....a pain i once thought i lost.......ur ( Read more... )

I guess I should make a proper entry since I haven't in a long time. It seems like a long time ( Read more... )

Things have been rocky lately. I feel like my bipolar meds are starting to not work anymore because I am all over the place. Phil and I have been fighting brutally lately, which is sad and weird because we never really got into arguments before. I feel like he's being controlling and he feels like he's just trying to protect my wellbeing. I see ( Read more... )

My life is going awesome ( Read more... )