I forgot to mention in my last entry that my car insurance is only $76 a month! Being older has it's perks, I haven't had a car since I was still in my teens and my insurance was always around $130 so it was a super pleasant surprise to have such cheap car insurance. Yay!

Life has been looking up a lot recently. I started seeing my old therapist, Pam which was definitely a good decision. I got a 1996 Toyota Camry that was a fixer-upper and it's at the shop now getting EVERYTHING on it fixed, the mechanic said I can expect another 100,000 miles out of it once it's fixed up. I'm very excited about that. Finally, a ( Read more... )

 And post the first sentence of the first entry of every month.

1. January 9 [my birthday]
"So this is odd
the painful realization that
all has gone wrong

and nobody cares at all."

2.  February 1st
'"Aisy is getting crazier and crazier everyday. She's almost full grown!"

3. March 7th
"Today we went to the Holi festival with BFF Sarah."

4. April 12th
"I ( Read more... )

I moved back to Orlando. I'm living with Phil now. We're working on making a room for Aisy and I'm settling in ( Read more... )

I got a job! It's a short term thing, but it's something and I'm totally stoked on it. I'm going to be the spotlight operator at the Florida Studio Theatre. WHAT A COOL JOB. I've only ever worked in food, so this is a step up and it'll be a good thing to put on a resume if I ever want to get into theatre stuff, which I might ( Read more... )

I went to see Dashboard Confessional with Phil on Sunday. It was the most amazing show I've ever been to, "hands down" [lulz] period. It was so good and intimate. Everyone knew all the words to every single song, it was incredible. I still feel a slight concert high ( Read more... )

I don't know what I'm doing anymore ( Read more... )

I saw the psychologist again today, it was kind of a pointless session because I was so zonked out on my new meds. They make me insanely sleepy and unable to function. I stayed at Beccas for a couple days and she got up with Aisy for me so I could sleep more and adjust to the meds. I think it's too high of a dose though. I need to be able to ( Read more... )

The psychiatrist thing was very good. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, PTSD, ADHD and alcoholism.
I agree with them all. 
We're treating each part separately and taking steps, first it's the bipolar.
I am now taking geodon, which is working well for having been 3 days.
The doctor gave me a TON of samples so that I wouldn't have to pay for a ( Read more... )

So, I haven't really written about this, I've had mixed feelings on the subject. I haven't wanted to write much lately.
No need to leave a paper trail, ha.
Whenever Billy's parents pick up Aisy it's so fucking awkward and forced.
Billy's dad is all business and his mom just ignores me and pretends I'm not there.
This has partially made me not want ( Read more... )