You know I too have feelings, and it takes a lot to keep them in check when the dam breaks and they come flooding, yet I do. Where as any minor inconvenience causes you to vomit all the vile emotions you feel on me until it fills the room and I am crushed under its weight. Yet I clean myself off and reset and force myself to rearrange my thoughts ( Read more... )

Leaving you I’m finally free
Can’t believe I thought you were the one
Never realized the manipulation devouring me
Walking around begging to feel the sun

Drenched from the rain clouds always above
Still allowing you to take the umbrella from my hand
Left in confusion While showering you in love
Feeling as if my hour glass has ran out of sand.

How can you wonder why you’re talking to brick walls.... when you’re the one who plastered them over with your stoicism?

Backhanded with your words ( Read more... )

Crying again on the floor ( Read more... )

     I wish I could crawl into someones mind for a day. Perhaps then when I have these, spirals, flashes, memories, de ja vu?? I would not feel so utterly alone, yet given the opportunity I would not take it. For fear that I would feel even more abandoned inside myself because if it weren't in them too, then surely I must just be crazy.

These ( Read more... )

So Levi... My ex of 7 years crushed my soul. I found out I was pregnant 2 days later. Had to send my kids away bc I had to find work and no one to watch them.... First time ever away from me .... Had a tubal ligation in Sept. 2010 after I died when having my daughter.... So shouldn't have been able to get pregnant.... But I bucked up, found a job I ( Read more... )

I go along in a blurry haze.
Mind circling back to better days.
Smile perpetually plastered on my face.
Just keep staring you might see a trace.

Of who I was long before,
I cried puddles on the floor.
Just take his hand, no need to fight.
Keep going along even if it's not right.

So didn't go to Oklahoma ( Read more... )

So I will be moving to Oklahoma, fucking nuts man ( Read more... )