I really just dont know what to do. You know its bad when I only talk on my LJ about things because I dont want all the random people that read my xanga to read about it. Anyway, I don't know what's wrong with me. Why can't I find a good guy. My mom already doesn't like Donnie. She hasn't even met him...hell we aren't even officially dating and she ( Read more... )

51 of the most random things you probably never needed to know about someone ( Read more... )

SOOO happy right now. I know I'm silly for having a huge crush on this guy and being so incredibly retarded that I can't even tell him about it. But I spent the day with boy which is always tons of fun :) we talked about a lot of just different and random things on the way home from the Seminary and at dinner. I can't stop smiling ( Read more... )

I've been hurt too many times by him to give him a third chance. I deserve more than being kept on the back burner. I just read my journal from a year ago, it's so weird how cyclical life is. Retarded that's for sure. Well, I deleted anything that reminds me of him. No more number in the phone, no emails, no nothing. He's gone from my life. I ( Read more... )

I'm so confused right now!!!!! I just don't know what to do. I mean, yes Ben and I have a history together. I was ready to spend my life with him. But when he went to Iraq and pushed me away to try and protect me, whether or not he admits that, with the intention that I'd be around when he came home. But I'm not. I can't. He said some harsh things ( Read more... )

I love showers. They allow you to do some really good thinking while relaxing. This was my shower thought..hopefully its as coherent on here as it was in the shower ( Read more... )

NaUtIcAdS2000: alrite ill talk to you later- we can talk more about that relationship thing when i get back- peace

what is up with that? I thought we talked about everything already. He already made it known how I feel. Ugh oh well....we'll see what happens after a week apart.

Its been awhile. I keep my other blog more up to date with the daily things but this is more for my deeper thoughts or more adult thoughts. What's been going on? Too much really. Especially when it comes to youngin. I'm attracted to him that's for sure. Everyone knows that. But still I'm a little hesitant. It was ackward at work today. We just ( Read more... )

My hands smell like bleach because I decided to clean my spa sandals from Bath and Body Works that are like 3 or 4 years old ( Read more... )

:) who would've thought I would ever be spending time with Donnie again. I called him today on a whim and he actually answered. So from about 4 until 11 we hung out watching movies and talking. It was really nice to be able to talk to him again. He got his lip pierced which was a different experience that's for sure. We'll see how life goes from ( Read more... )