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Don't Remember
I'm sitting here reading past entries that I have typed from years ago...
I don't recognize any of this shit, which is a good thing. Life isn't as fucked up as it was then. I've left behind the drama bullshit from others, stayed away from the drug addicts that pulled me down with them, etc.
I don't have anything to say - I've stayed writing at my ( Read more... ) -
Update *Rant*
Hello world of LJ.
A lot going on lately.
HTML class is going better than I think it is --- I have an A still in this class....but I always think I'm messing something up on my website project....its not easy building a website from scratch!
Health class can kiss my ass. Recently we had to write a paper and keep track of our eating for 5 days. ( Read more... ) -
It hurts...
I picked a bad day for this.
I have too much going on tomorrow that I can't concentrate.
Sending that email was the hardest one I've ever sent to her.
I needed to send it though.
Maybe someday I will hear back from her, but I doubt it.
And it hurts so fucking bad right now.
I need to get through my life on my own....without anyone's help. I'm not ( Read more... ) -
Update
Things are going well for the most part.
Psych 211 still an A so far
English 102 have no idea mainly because the 12 - 15 page paper is the biggest part of this class -- Conferences with teacher starts next week oh yay! (sarcastic).
Heard someone say my name when I was walking through the parking lot at the college today, don't know who it was.
Math ( Read more... ) -
Adventures of YGA Office
Just about today's adventures in Portland at the YGA office...
Even though I'm sick right now, today has been the best day in a long time. I went to Portland this morning with Josh and met Anne at the YGA office. I spent a total of 6 hours there!
Talked with Anne for awhile about a few loving memories of when I was at Turning Point. Great memories ( Read more... ) -
When is this cycle going to end?
The constant reminder of guilt? The constant reminder of memories at the damn college? The comparing people to other people in my life?
I'm fine...really. Ok, for the most part I am.
Almost quit college because of English -- gee, like thats not a fucking re-run of past terms!
Almost dropped my English class today...
Talked to Crystal for awhile ( Read more... ) -
Update back on LJ
Things have been weird lately.
Haven't been going to classes because of being in too much physical pain. Teachers are pissing me off -- how conviently English teacher again!
Oh well, I'll get through this term. I don't care what the fuck it takes.
This thing about Yahoo 360 is pissing me off more than anything. Do I like to have an "online blog" ( Read more... ) -
I Am...
I am....
Hurt
Rejected
Unwanted
Defeated
Lonely
Disappointed
Victimized
Drained
Jealous
Fearful
Panicky
Threatened
Insecure
Reluctant
Trapped
Uncertain
Overwhelmed
But I am also.....
Powerful
Strong
Loving
Trusting
Capable
Lovable
Worthy
Caring
Compassionate
And I don't need anyone's approval
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Writing of the Past
The worst thing about keeping things you write, is finding them when you aren't expecting to...
Like the one I wrote at the end of Nov. 2005
I thought I had thrown this away...
Lot of emotions that I had during the time I wrote this came back tonight.
But at the same time I'm glad that I kept it because I realize how much my thinking has ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
Panic attacks suck!!!!
Have a feeling something is wrong.
Don't know what the fuck it is
All I know is that it feels like something is wrong with someone
And all I can do is panic
I am trying not to -- which I think is just making it worse
Not hearing from people very often (if it all) isn't makeing this any easier.
Thoughts of "ok, they are pissed ( Read more... )