Strangely enough this was the worst AND the best valentine's day ever. Best because i totally broke berk's heart all over. And the funny part was, ok so he's like challenging me to a fight when hips don't lie comes on at the disco, so he's like, "You wanna fight, bring it on, you wanna fight?" And then the song says, 'No fightin no fightin' then i ( Read more... )

My life is fucked up its not funny anymore. I'm totally confused, but I've totally realized that with ava and her pack of bitches, it's war. It's survival of the best. I'm going to in. I'm not the slut they all believe i am. they can say I'm a slut, they can throw their litttle coins at me thanking me for the previous night that never happened, but ( Read more... )

I dunno i was just thinking about how we all go to bed, how we fall asleep everynight. I guess it's just that before we go to bed, we lie to ourselves, pretend tomorrow will be better even if we know it won't be. We forgive ourselves for whatever we did wrong. Sometimes we cry ourselves to sleep, but most nights we lie to ourselves pretend it'll be

Urgh, im so frustrated and depressed and i hate everything right now. I'm so confused. I just want a friend and in science I was struggling not to cry because I found out the one person here i thought cared doesn't. So when I finally cried like a tiny bit Courtney and Camille noticed and asked what was wrong and I basically just said that I'm sick ( Read more... )

So confused about everything. i wanna go somewhere silent. Where no one's around to think, straighten everything out in my mind. Because Joonas left me a comment on facebook saying He loved me, asking me out. but I don't think it was him. I'm confused because he won't respond. i just want to know. And then on Friday, Courtney was talking to Berk ( Read more... )

Valentine's day is soon. I'll spend it alone as always. All i want is a single red rose from someone other than Berk. One single red rose. That's all. Just so i know one person in this world loves me. That's all i ask for. One red rose. is that so much?

DO NOT CHEAT ( Read more... )

life sucks. i'm falling for the gy i swore i'd never fall for again, my friend had a breakdown today and when i wanted to cry i had to be strong and tell her it'd be okay when im not so sure myself, now the tears i need to cry won't flow, i'm really confused about so many things, i don't wanna go to the disco because of last disco, which i dont ( Read more... )

Don't know how the titles relevent but i'm listening to the curse of curves by cute is what we aim for and i couldn't think of a creative title. I haven't been posting for a while. Lots happening and i can't really say all of it. It's too much, i've become pretty much a 100% outcast with 2 friends at school the stupid drama teacher hates me so i ( Read more... )

I wanna give up, I'm tired of back and forth and back again between depression and happiness. I can't keep doing this. Crying one moment then hyper the next. i can't keep doing it. I can't keep pretending to be happy. i can't keep avoiding Berk, but i guess I actually can. I never changed, I'm just finally fed up of hiding my feelings. I need ( Read more... )