Comments | butterflyvixon: What's up?

butterflyvixon

What's up?

Jul 01, 2005 16:54

I have an issue guys. Not that I don't always have an issue, because I do... One issue or another. But this issue is bugging me, it has to do with Ash. I feel like she hates me. Or just is avoiding me right now. Why? I wanna know why? I do not understand. Does she hate me? Or is she just really confused right now? If it's the fact that I didn't ( Read more... )

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blu_crying_wolf July 1 2005, 22:55:16 UTC

You know what? I'm trying to be nice here. I'm trying to avoid you right now because I don't have my meds and I don't wanna say something to hurt you or our friendship. I know right now it's not the best of things, but it's still there as far as I'm concerned. No, I do not hate you. I would never be able to hate you. I'm just trying to look out for you and everyone else. I am very, very touchy lately... the slightest comments set me off, and I don't wanna say something I'm going to regret. I've already explained this to Simon a long time ago, and I would have thought he would have told you. I really feel strongly about this. Each and every time I think about it, I get upset in some way or another. I feel it is best to leave it until I am able to resond without overreacting. I only hope you understand this. It's not about what happened the night you left. I think that I've been over that a long time ago. It was the fact that Ben kept trying, and kept trying, after me telling him to let things alone. No, you're right. I don't know why ( ... )

Not a Fight.... butterflyvixon July 1 2005, 23:22:11 UTC

Well the reason probably that Simon never said anything... is he and I weren't doing great. We were not talking for awhile. Which really broke my heart. That is why I couldn't talk to Ben, or even say hi...Because I was on the verge of crying. Because I had just gotten off the phone with Simon. So no I couldn't have even say Hi. Which is Silly I know? But if I would have tried to say hello.. I would have started crying and then yes I would have gotten into a long conversation.. Because I would've felt like I had to. And it hasn't felt like Ben has been trying real hard. But that's just my opinion. Because last time I heard anything from him, was that time he wrote an email to my Troymessenger addy. After that I saw him at WalMart. And Simon and I were going through alot. And I was still trying to figure out how my father could be like he was. And it was just too much ( ... )