yesterday - change of plans...did not go to the mall. instead walked to la salsa, watched mean girls with marina and kris. it was a good movie. had a daughter to mom talk...about life. and i was crying so much. i was finally releasing the anger. now she knows whats happening. and she took it all wrong. said i needed a phsychologist to talk to and ( Read more... )

today was fun. and kinda somewhat boring at first because calamigos was just like a version of the eighth grade lawn except with free food and an itty bitty small dirty full of piss pool that was freezing cold with a hot lifeguard named peter (see roxanna's LJ) =). i hung out with kristiene and marina. we swam...took us a while...cold...and i'm ( Read more... )

wow. my mom is really religious. come to think of it--my whole family is. anyways...on our way to piano, there was this man selling cherries on one side of the street and i guess my mom was feeling charitable and and wanted to get a bag...and when we came home to eat them: "wow these are SO sweet. you know what, maybe this is a sign from God. maybe ( Read more... )

This time, I’m not gonna let you have the last word.

This time, I’ll be the one to end us.

This time, you won’t be breaking my heart.

It’s always you who brings me to tears.

Always you to drag me down to my misery

And ignore me, bruise my soul, give me pain.

But I won’t let you...not anymore.

I’ll be the one to ignore your phone calls.

I’ll be ( Read more... )

first day of CAT 6 testing. wahoo.

they've been showing Grease a couple of times for the past few days...i love the songs. and suki knows the lyrics!

something i wrote a long time ago:

He promised me he would be here at midnight. Where could he be? Carrying a rose, petals crisp and dead. Lost thoughts and weak body, chapped lips and colorless ( Read more... )

hello ... urgh i feel so icky. i think this is my first zit or pimple whatever you call this hideous thing on the center of my chin. now that tops it. i thought i could't get any uglier.

am i really one of your best friends?

which none: really hot till your clothes are wet with sweat or freezing cold until your ears turn blue?

when do you know ( Read more... )

um..boring day so far. i wanted to go to the movies today with red.

i do and yet i don't want to go to high school. gonna be ten times the amount of drama..

all in love is fair...one of us will lose.. is it her or or me? is it me and you...who's it gonna be...whatcha gonna do..are you over me? i'm not over you.

WBFROGG: ugh damn me
WBFROGG: we had ( Read more... )

everyday i spend each and every minute thinking about you ... walking behind you while you hold her hand. i can't help it. your face has taken over my thoughts, even though you have someone else to care for and to hold in your arms while i'm left with the feeling of sadness... feeling cold. unwanted..just not good enough. you're the only one who ( Read more... )

I thought what we had together was special. It doesn't even matter to you anymore. It wasn't supposed to happen this way...not to us. You said you didn't want me. And I tried. Everytime I saw you in the halls I tried to keep myself from floating. It didn't work. I still want you in my life. I still need you. Please, come back and stop the tears. I ( Read more... )

today science classes went to the MPR to check out high schools and such. my home school is birmingham. and i want to go to taft. what about you? it was actually fun. i was somewhat hyper. and the guy was like breathing down my neck and putting his arm on my shoulder and he asked me if i was going to birmingham but i said "my parents want me to go ( Read more... )