this is kinda scarily accurate. the forced to compromise is definitely being in florida. haha


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 self-destructive spiral.

i feel stranded here.
my ears are on fire.
i've been having really nice dreams only to wake up feeling completely empty and alone.
keep busy. keep busy. keep busy. keep busy. 
vodka goes surprisingly well with green tea.

i just want to sleep until july.

 in florida until april.
it's weird being back. 
when i left i thought that i would never go back.
fell right back into the same old routine.

matt's in afghanistan until july. 
probably the hardest thing ever is not knowing what's going on or if he's okay.
blah. losing sleep.

a whole lot of nonsense basically sums up this weekend ( Read more... )

september has been a month full of craziness:

-kicked out of my brother's house for not having a job two weeks after i graduated cosmetology school.
-lived in limbo for a day or two.
-moved into my aunt's who has no room for me, literally.
-wierd birthday. only gift recieved was a spiderman watch from my ex.
-TRYING to build my adult life literally from ( Read more... )

relatively uneventful birthday.
actually, completely uneventful.
didnt do anything.

my earlobe fell off when i pulled on it ( Read more... )

so school's done with, yet 99.99% of the jobs available are for licensed cosmetologists. and my brother and sister-in-law dont understand that ( Read more... )

i hate watching happy movies alone. too depressing...

i graduate cos school tomorrow.

it's so wierd, another step into adulthood done with.
blah.
i feel old.

next goal: illustration

i'll never be done with school.