I can't even look at you without falling in love with you over and over again. I wonder why you like me and how serious you are, but I shouldn't. I'm scared of what I've gotten into. Three days without you and that has been making my head shake

While driving home i realized that there are a lot of things i need to say to you that i cant say to you in person. What am I leaving? No job, more friends than I realized, a history of ups and downs. I don't know, I know you wont read this. I hope you're aware (which I think you are) that I am SO proud of you. It breaks my heart to see you look ( Read more... )

loneliness isn't being alone....

Never been so comfortable with someone
so myself
and thats all it is it's driving me nuts
not to tell you that i love you in the morning.

Despite how shitty things and people can be, (catty, restless, obnoxious, sketchy), some parts of life are actually good. California and counting. Waiting for 1 am tomorrow.

See if I give a fuck ( Read more... )

I guess I crossed the line somewhere between holding your hand and having your fingers on the back of my neck.

And I guess that's how I felt. That if anyone knew how a relationship would end, people would never date anyone. But who is using who? Honestly I can't remember. Now my dog is in the hospital. And apparently I have no friends. And that is why this post is for you. Who else could it be for? I am tired of the same-ol' same-ol' and the public ( Read more... )

Where do I tell you that I can't do this anymore? I surely can't do it to your face.

Ahhh, this is the first time I've been sober all week. I'm running low on baby-sitter fluid. "It's nothing to worry about, it's just poetry." I'm going to soak my cut-up feet in the salty river. Where is summer? I'm in limbo.

I don't recall sleep. I woke up awake laying beside you on the side of the bed that I don't find comfort in. I can still see the stains. I packed my things and left. Laid awake all day.

My head hurts. Is the week over yet? This week has been so strange and not like me.