this isnt what I want

You know, fuck this. I'm really, really getting tired of all this. I'm going for a drink, and then I'm going to figure out how I can avoid having my friendship abused in this way.

I took the day off from worrying ( Read more... )

Spent an hour in the bath, reading. Sang a bit. I stood up. The water fell off me as I rose. Had to go dripping back out to the linen closet because I forgot to bring a towel in with me. I brushed my teeth and shaved, combed my hair down, pulled it back and tied it up. All in all, I felt good. Relaxed. Maybe for the first time in the month ( Read more... )

Well, it's been some kind of a day. There was the obligatory drunk-ass who stumbles in and threatens us for money and then wanders off harmlessly, all of twenty people coming in for dinner, and Jeff getting worked up over the new menu. Poop jokes were made (Hah hah hah! Dingleberries.), and I got out relatively early. Before and after work, ( Read more... )

A shitty, worthless day.
Overslept.
The health inspector came.
Work kicked my ass.
Cried all the way home.

Fuck you. And in case you didn't hear, fuck you again.

Worst. Year. Ever. A total waste from start to finish.

I hate you. You've hurt me more than anyone I've ever met. You have done every last thing you possibly could have done to ensure that I'll never trust again. You don't deserve love. You don't deserve life. If you have a heart, you ripped mine out. I've half a mind to put up all the shit you've sent me for everyone to see. The movie, the ( Read more... )

November fourth, I'm officially 21. I've waited for this a long time. Now it's here, I don't know if I want it. On the one hand, 20 was hands down the worst year of my life and I'm glad to be rid of it. So many bad things have never happened to me in so short a time. On the other, though, it's a step towards getting older, growing up. I have ( Read more... )

I think for the first time ever I might not do anything for Halloween this year, and I entirely blame Jeff. I didn't even buy costumery because I didn't know we were closing for Halloween until just this week. Bastards. Now, the scramble to assemble plans before Halloween. Anyone have any suggestions? At all ( Read more... )

My PS2 died tonight. Ugh, now I'll have to buy one of those horrible little ones.