Adam if you find this then fate is real and has intervened. i don't know if i believe in fate, or soul-mates.. or even that love endures anymore. I put this in the least likely place for you to stumble across it. A place where you would have to come looking for my memory to discover my msg. afloat in cyberspace. If you find this someday then all ( Read more... )

my last day at BSU. I'm happy in so many ways and proud of the accomplishments i've made while here but I just can't believe it's over. there are few times when words fail me.. but i have no words for this moment. i feel so much in this moment and yet i have nothing to say. instead i'm left in silence with memories of the last four yrs running ( Read more... )

It's the beginning of the end here at Ball State for me. I started packing tonight. The blank walls make for the perfect movie screen and as I stared at them I watched the past year and a half play back. I saw so many of me and Adam's firsts as a couple play out on the walls of this tiny apartment. The thought of leaving all that behind really ( Read more... )

they say the only certainty in this life is change.. then why is it so hard to let go ( Read more... )

the things i miss the most ( Read more... )

clinging to my two rocks in life God and Adam.

"Cause when I look to the sky something tells me you're here with me
And you make everything alright
And when I feel like I'm lost something tells me you're here with me
And I can always find my way when you are here"

So with the problems my parents are having lately I find a small fear of marriage trying to form in my heart. I won't allow it to take root though. I see the devils plan for what it is. The conveinant timing of my parents marriage falling apart at a time when I'm reaching that point in my life. I know he'd like nothing better then to take out ( Read more... )

My grandfather had a television ministry called the voice of truth. He's gone on home now but I still think he whispers down at me now and then when this song plays in difficult periods of my life. i hear ya granpa ( Read more... )

mmm like this poem ( Read more... )

I like to make rootbeer floats with chocolate icecream and let them melt into milk annnnd my favorite part of this process is the frothy that floats on top. Every bastard song on the radio reminds me of my Adam! .. might have something to do with the fact I'm listening a station playing all love songs. Ooooh why do I torture myself?!