it has been a really long time since i have been on here...wow. i have been doing so much lately....alot of partying...and clubbing...and working....but hey whatever. im not to sure that anyone will read this but its nice to think that maybe someone will. to all my other friends on here...if i still have any...hello.

wow...this is wierd...i have never felt more alone than this week. i dont really know why...wait....yeah i do....its because..i have no one. absolutely no one to put any effort into. no one to enjoy time with. i want to love someone...i kinda dont care who. everyone around me has someone or is into someone. i just feel so.....alone..i guess ( Read more... )

well today was a good day...i was off work today...i think it was a pretty good day.i bought a new shirt...so that was fun. and went to the mall with my friend sarah. yeah well im just typing for the hell of it right now so im just going to stop i suppose.

well i am really kinda in an odd mood. i kinda wish that i had someone to love...someone to hold...its been a long time since i have had someone...i feel so left out almost...all my friends either have someone or they are taking an intrest in someone. oh well i suppose that my time will come.

wow...its been a really long time since i have been on here. well well well...lets see what can i say. it was birthday on saturday...that was really cool. i got a telescope and a journal and a watch, from my parents. i got a gift card from my brother..and i got a photo album from my friend vicky. i dont really feel any different though. anyways ( Read more... )

well today has been fun. my best friend vicki got her tounge pierced. of course i dont think she would call it fun. but thats beside the point. it seems like my family is just being really mean to me...just because i hang out with my friends alot.

well...im in college now...thank god. i am only taking one class at a time though. i dont want to rush things. i also finally talked to rachel. i am taking algebra at night..well more mid afternoon. but it seems to be going well, except for the 50 that i made on the first test...oh well ill do better next time i suppose. have fun.

well i am doin fair i suppose. i am actually really annoyed with my life. i keep on putting off getting registered for classes and all that other stuff. i just get so annoyed about not doing it when i said i was so i end up forgeting i guess. and i really dont know what i want to do with my life and it really stresses my out. having said that ( Read more... )

well, i started my new job at cvs. its really cool. i like it alot. i realized that i was a complete asshole to some of my close friends. one being rachel and one being gina. rachel and i had something going and then it stopped so i ignored her like a dick. it was extremly rude of my and i appologize for that. i know that she doesnt call me ( Read more... )

well, tomorrow is my best friends birthday and she is going to love her kick ass gift. of course i would tell you all, but she reads my journal. anyways...i had an interview with pacific sunwear and i really hope that i do get that job. i really want a job in retail. well i gotta go take a shower now so....