I looked at my youngest son today and realized that he has grown up almost overnight! Gone was my blond cherub and in his place stood this tall young man, cigarette in hand, with a bored expression permanently in residence! He reminds me of Andrea at his age. Oh my God! It's starting again. Pierre, the youngest of my older children is becoming ( Read more... )

My son is in pain and I am helpless to ease it. I always thought that I would be relieved when his relationship with David Beckham ended, and I am, but I am saddened by Andrea's heartbreak. He is clearly shattered by this turn of events. I cannot find the words to say to him. His pain is real, rather I agreed with the relationship or not. I ( Read more... )

I spent the afternoon with my oldest daughter. We watched a movie and laughed and ate popcorn. It felt so good hear her laughter and see her smile. It seems like so long since we spent time together. I looked at her out of the corner of my eye when she didn't know I was watching. She is beautiful, my daughter. I can see Maman and Stefano ( Read more... )

Tomorrow is Charlotte's birthday. I remember the day she was born. Stefano was so happy that our child was a girl. I had a difficult time getting him to put her down. He had such high hopes for her and our other children. I think he would be proud of them for the most part, but she would not be blatantly living with the Prince of Wales if her ( Read more... )

I am wondering if I should acknowledge Charlotte's birthday. It is coming up soon. To be honest, my life is peaceful when I don't speak directly to her. I get reports on her daily activities, but I have not sought to have a conversation with her in several weeks. I do this for much the same reason I avoid my sister's company. Charlotte has ( Read more... )

Andrea and I spoke at length about his current situation. He told me that while he understood my concerns about his choices, he intends to continue to lead his life as he so wishes. Discreetly ( Read more... )

I had to find out from an acquaintance that my son was seen in Finland with a gang of young people and with no body guards in sight. I contact the men hired to protect him and they reluctantly admitted that they had lost Andrea at a coffee house not far from his apartment. This time, he has gone too far! He is too important to Monaco to be ( Read more... )

I cannot believe... just when I thought that it couldn't get any worse! Dear God, Poppa will be crushed by this. Andrea has done this to spite me because of Charlotte. He not only chooses a man for his next sexual encounter, he choose the most famous and most photographed man in Europe ( Read more... )

I had dinner with Andrea and his lovely date, Kristanna. I congratulated her on her coming movie success. It was so good to see Andrea. I haven't seen him in several weeks. I saw that he truly was becoming a man and that the burden of his birth was beginning to weigh on him. I tried to tell him of the folly of singing in a band. Indeed, the ( Read more... )

Tears spring to my eyes now when I think of my children. I tried so hard to show them the mistakes I'd made, never hiding anything, in hopes that they would learn from my difficulties ( Read more... )