5 months.
we made up.
we're friends again.
my room is a mess.
i got a new book.
my mom told me my 9-year-old brother was smarter than me.
i got alot of shit off of my chest.
i get ungrounded sunday.
party crew come back together!

I'm scared.

I'm so ready to kill myself. Honestly? Yeah. My family is completely out of it. My mom is officially insane. Everyone resents her, and i'm the only one strong enough to say "no mom, fuck you". That's what she fucking needs to hear. This morning I was woken up at 8 o fucking clock to go to church at 10:30. Uhh... no. Not gonna happen. Wake me up 15 ( Read more... )

http://youtube.com/watch?v=CpJB60JJcKs

I'm officially bored senseless. I have absolutely nothing to do besides sit here, bother neil with stupid phone calls, lurk the fuck outta random people, make these little movies, and eat zebra cakes. D: God... I'm so fucking bored. It's ( Read more... )

I AM AMAZING.

i also have the best boyfriend ever.

I'm done with all of this bullshit.
I'm not going to see anyone.
Talk to anyone.
Look at anyone.

I'm done with people.

Done & done.

I'm so ready to get out and see my friends. I haven't seen anyone in a week. It's pathetic. I miss Neil so so much. I really miss my party crew. I swear, the second I get ungrounded, i'm going all out with my drinking. God, i'm so uncomfortable. I have all these bug bites on me. I even have one on my asshole. It itches so fucking bad. But anyways, ( Read more... )

Sometimes, I just wish my mom would lock herself in her room forever. I get so sick of hearing her say "take them thangs outta your ear!", "why are you always cutting on your hair!?", "take your medicine!". I'M NOT RETARDED MOM. I KNOW I'M RUINING MY EARS. I KNOW HOW TO CUT HAIR. I KNOW TO TAKE THE GODDAMN MEDICINE. JUST SHUT UP.

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I just thought i'd put this out there.
I miss neil, beer, and cave 9 party crew.
Alot alot alot alot.

i need new music

fuck.